ready for ramadan al-mubarak...

bbrape2 ari lg da bln pose...cpt rsenye...xsbr!
xsbr jgk nk blik umh esk...
nk mkn byk2 sblom pose..huhuhu...
tp ramadan kali nie,,agk sedih+sunyi...sbb adik aku kt prantauan....arwah nenek da pon da xde...
kalo adik aku ade tu bleh la gado2 ngn die kn time nk pilih mknn..huhuu...
kalo arwah nenek aku ade bleh mkn masakan die...sdap sgt mskn die..kuih2 yg die wt..tp sume tu da xde...


my mom mtk bln pose nih duk kt umh...sbb xde org..sunyi...tmbh akif  n adik xde lg la..adik plak jarang blik..waa...buhsannye ak...slmt la lec ak bg cuti...kalo x..bkak pose kt kmpus la jwbnye(mcm xbiase plak...)huhuhu


da la xnk ckp byk2..
nk ckp skit2 je..huhu
bye...slm..^^

::muhasabah diri::

sedih sgt100...i dont knw how to express it..
....smpai hati...ya ALLAH....skit nye htiku nie...
tp nk wt cmne...i have to sabar...n sabar...n sabar..n xthu smpi ble......moga2 Allah kuatkan kesabaran ku...
tp kuat ke hati aku nie nk menempuhnye??...truskn bdoa...
rse nk nangis....tp aku tahan je...nk mjerit...tp aku tahan je....semuanye aku tahan...
xthu nk luahkn pde sape.....ok...aku nk luah kn pade ALLAH s.w.t mlalui doaku...moga2 ALLAH tenangkan hati yg kusut nie...hanya ALLAH sje yg phm perasaan hambaNya...hanya ALLAH sje yg thu perasaan dan hati kita....mama...i'm really2 need u....

insyaALLAH...xde pape...ALLAH sentiasa ade bsme kita...kuatkn iman kte....xpyh nk pk mnde2 yg boleh myakitkan hati kita...fokus pade pljaran ....yg pnting agama kte tjaga....

ape2 yg kte wt kte kna igt pd Allah...keluarga kte.....supaya kte xtersasar jauh...

*muhasabah diri*

xlama lg bln puasa...bln pnuh keberkatan...byk gnjaran dlm bln tu...kte kna rebut peluang yg ALLAH bg..mne thu maybe ramadan thn nie ramadan yg terakhir buat kte...bykkn amal ibadat...n jgn lupa doakan utk parents kte...tnpa mama n papa..kte xde kt dunia nie...time ramadan la kte bleh sejukkn hati mama n papa dengan doa kte...

*ya ALLAH....ampunknlah dosa mama dan papaku..kasihanilah mereka seperti mana mereka mengasihani aku swaktu aku kecil...Y_Y.....

serius!!!...i wanna cry!!..TTT_TTT

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(sje2 cte...)
smlm nisfu syaaban...tp ak lam keadaan  uzur..
so just bzikir n dengar bacaan yassin tru my phone...
smlm rse tenang yg amat...keberkatan mlm nisfu syaaban org ckp...
dipendekkn cite...ak tdo...then dlm tido ade sbuah mimpi...
ak bermimpi pasal......dia ...y?xthu la...ak xpk pon psl dia...tp mmpi jgk...
lam mimpi tu...dia dtg umh aku..then borak ngn mom ak...(mcm da lme knal la...)
then die blikn mknn utk aku...pastu yg pliknye...die mtk aku urutkn belakang die...
die ckp skit blakang..aku yg mnurut perintah nie amik minyak, sapu kt belakang die n urut...ak pom xthu y i'm doing like that....after that die ajk aku kuar lpas die mtk permission ngn parents aku.... blom smpt kami kuar(lam mimpi tersebut ye..) ak tjaga dr mimpi (sbenarnye pnjg lagi... bak kte org dpendekkan cte)...yang mana sepanjang aku tdo...rupenye2 ak psg earphone dgr zikir2 n ayt al-quran smpi ak bgn tdo...then bateri phone aku terus mati sbb smalaman dgr zikir2 n ayat2 suci al-quran...


-mimpi tu just mainan tdo...jgn nk percaya sgt...kdg2 mimpi mbawa msej yg baik ,buruk n sebagainye...ape yg kte perlu buat...percaya pade ALLAH....tawakkal dan redha ngn ktentuan ilahi...


-tp...smpi skrg ak still dok ingt psl mmpi tu...haiyaa...stop thinking la!...

T_T

i feel that like i wanna to cry n scream aloud as i can...ya ALLAH...tlgla hamba Mu ini....permudahkan la segala kerja yng susah bagi ku....hanya Engkau saja yg memahami perasaan ku ini...meronta-ronta....mama...i need u...fyi..bukan psl cnta ye...cinta2 nie da xde lam kamus hdup aku wt mse skarang...mls nk pk...ni psl ape yng aku nk smbung...i'm really2 down right now...i hope i can settle this problems as soon as possible...i dont want to think bout dis problems anymore..

ya ALLAH....permudahkanlah segala urusan ku pade ari nie..esok dan ari2 yang mndatang...

seyes...i wanna cry...T_T

noname...

akif+has

koya!

tibe2 rse nk upload gmbr diorg..huhuhu...ble ekk dpt pg sne?...insyaAllah ade rezeki dptla pegi...huahua...(tibe2 gelak..) byk lg...

p/s for akif: jgn lupe bwk blik souvenir yerr...i da gtau ape yg i nk...waahhh...demand...huhu..skali skala ngn adek2 ape slhnye kn...huhuhu....

letihh...

ok...ak bru smpi....i'm so tired..so..as u knw... we need to sleep when we're tired....but b4 that..i need to tell u smething...not too interesting la..smlm ak pegi hospital tgk ank kazen ak msk ward...sian die...kecik lg...6months..skit usus kate maknye...ciannye..ak xley tgk...sebak sgt100...baby sekecil tu mderita skit...xthu cmne bleh skit...sabar ye rayyan...aunty doakn rayyan ye..(cehh aunty konon!...hahahah...)..cute sgt rayyan...putih mlepak....rindu plak rse..nk lt picha die pon xde...huhuh....tu psl rayyan...

ni psl aku...hohoho...xde lah...sbenarnye xde idea nk tulis ape lg...oooohhh bru igt...adek aku dr aussie kol lam mggu ni asyik cte psl nk kawen je...aishhhh...langkah bendul nmpk....hahahha...tp die gurau2 je...mama n papa aku manelah bgi kawen lg...maseh blaja...makwe die pon kt sne gak tp uni lain...kt brisbane...hmmm...best je tgk diorg...suwiit kapel yg direstui mama n papa bukan stakat mama n papa je...atuk, arwah nenek,makcik2 pakcik2.....hoho...aku?? hahaha...xyah tya...

td ptg...xsempat abis tgk cte korea GLASS CASTLE....best gak cte tu...rindu ngn min joo n joon seong....mama pon lyn cte nie...mama pon da mnt korea...sumenye gara2 adek aku a.k.a kakchik...sblom ni mama n aku mmg xsuke gle korea...lpas tgk cte nie tsangkut plak ngn cte2 korea...hehe...


tu jela kot nk cte...huhu...

i'm worried about that.....

waaaa....cmne nie...tibe2 rse takut....sedih...risau...bdebar..sume ade...what should i do???

mama...help me...

ya Allah...takutnye aku nie...aishhh...

emmm....think...think n think...until u get de answer...huh...

teringin...

teringin nk


-wt mama n papa always happy n proud with me.. (da slalu wt tp nk lebih lg...)


-tgk mama n papa sntiasa senyum even diorg ade mslh.. (ya ALLAH lindungilah ibu dan ayah ku setiap saat dan nafas mereka..aku syg sgt ibu dan ayah ku..)


-tgk adek2 bjaya lam hdup diorg..xkirala ape jua bdang skali pon janji dberkati ALLAH...amin...insyaALLAH


-g jln2 kt oversea ngn family especially france, korea n aussie...


-g mecca sme2 ngn family...wt umrah... (ya ALLAH bukaknlh pntu hati kami)

-ade family sndri..(mksudnye kawen..hahahah.gatal..calon pon xde...ade hati....=p)

setakat tu je blh gtau ...selebihnye will be continue later k...

my feeling...

omg...ari nie rse bad mood sgt100....sian ngn adek2...kna mrh xtntu psl...sory baby+aiman....kakak xbniat pn..tibe2 moody...sometimes i cant control my feeling..ya Allah...jauhkn la diriku ini dr perasaan mrh....T_T...

kakak mtk maaf....

i've no idea anymore...see u on da next entries..slm..

mama,papa,baby,aiman,adek,akif...i love u!

this song make me cry...T_T

ble dgr lgu nie tringt kt someone..=(
omg....